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Edward is my only love now...

So i am sad and mad! Boys are nothing but horny, selfish, tongue stabbing S.O.B's!

So i have been with this guy *lets call him Jack* for almost 3 years, off and on. Anyways Jack and Me are watching Tv on his bed, then he gets really close to me and says "I missed you..." I said "Okay..." so then he goes on to explain that he has been waiting and he thinks that by now we should have well *e*, i told him that i am not ready and i am not going to do it till i know that it is offical and i see a big ass diamond on my finger! Hell for all i know...after the deed we could break up and that will even be more painful because i gave myself to him. So he got mad and said "I have invested alot into this relationship and if we are not going to do this in the near future then I can't wait any longer, and i want to call quits!" I am still shocked that he had the balls to tell me, ME!!!!!!!! that! Gosh i am so fucking pist at him just thinking about this is making me cry! He does not have any respect for me or my morals, i am not like a hardcore christian but i hold myself up high and have a lot of self respect! I have given him everything, when we go shopping its me that buys him things, hell i can't even remember the last time he bought me anything *LUNCH DOES NOT COUNT CHEAP S.O.B!* 
AND on TOP OF all that I have finals all this week and if i don't have above a 3.5 GPA i can't recieve my scholar ship! And right now i am hoping for a C in math! This is my first year in college i can't screw this up!
I just don't want to have sex because already 3 friends of mine got pregnant, my mothers friends daughters (who are younger than me) are pregnant as well...and my cousin just got a vaginal infection from her boyfriend! 

I am just so lost and heartbroken...


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Apr. 24th, 2007 03:29 am (UTC)
Good for you, for sticking to what you believe in.

I'm a year younger than you, and most of my friends have already had sex, or are seriously considering it. My best friend had an absolutely awful first experience and wishes that she had waited a little longer.

Personally, I'm waiting until I get engaged/married, but that's just me.

Also, I'm leaving a comment on the last thing you put in my journal, since you had such a bad day.

I hope you like it...
Apr. 24th, 2007 03:33 am (UTC)
Thanks, it really means alot to me that I vent out and someone listens to it, ya know! I just don't know what to do because we both go to the same school, i drive and cherry on top of the horrible sunday, he lives right next door to me!
Apr. 24th, 2007 03:36 am (UTC)
that is tough.

I'm really sorry that you had to go through that

sometimes I want to slap men for being so rude to women
Apr. 24th, 2007 03:41 am (UTC)
Slap, nah...PUNCH! YES PLEASE!hahaha You are one cool chicka! thumbs up for us!
Apr. 25th, 2007 05:43 pm (UTC)
Good for sticking up for your beliefs! Just beacause someone wants you to do something, doesn't mean you have to. And if they can't appreciate your choice or morals, then they're not worth the trouble. (I'm not trying to sound insensitive or anything.) Sometimes people can be jerks. But think of it this way, someone out there is your Edward Cullen. All you have to do now is find him. (Gah...I have to find mine. -looks around for anyone who can be Edward Cullen-)
Apr. 25th, 2007 06:00 pm (UTC)
Thanks, what you said really ment alot to me. He said after finals are over that we should "talk", i mean what the hell is there to talk about more! I am not changing my mind and i am guessing he is not either, so really there is no point in talking anymore about this! I just want him completely out of my life! Yesterday, i saw him talking to his ex (she is married but still!) and i was thinking "I wonder what he is talking to her about!?" Now i feel like the next girl he goes for, he just wants the sex! Fucken JERK! BUT for some reason....i feel that he is/or going to regret his decision, i am not drop dead hot but i am cute as a button (hahahha)but i feel like he will not get another g/f for a while, especially a cute/hot one...(still in anger mode). Hell he is almost 20 and he can't even dress himself, i go clothes shopping for him so that he looks decent! YOU AND ME ARE GOING TO FIND OUR EDWARD'S AND THEY WILL BE THE BEST BF'S EVER!!!
Apr. 25th, 2007 06:03 pm (UTC)
Yes! We should have an Edward Cullen Hunt! We'll bring nets and Edward Cullen fangirl T-shirts and everything1 lol xD
Apr. 25th, 2007 06:06 pm (UTC)
Right ON! So with you on the Edward Cullen Hunt! Wait...will he be able to out run us? eekk...I guess we are just going to have to get a werewolf to help us catch him! XD
Apr. 25th, 2007 06:09 pm (UTC)
-drools over your icon- No, no need for werewolves. We'll ambush him! But we can have one as backup, as well as a a limited colllection of Debussy, a Volvo, and hmm...mountain lions! He won't be able to resist! xD
Apr. 25th, 2007 06:12 pm (UTC)
Hahahahahahah.........i forgot about mountain lions, we will be sure to bring some! But we are going to need something to block him from our thoughts! or else he will know of the plan.......dun-dun-dunnnnnnnnnnnnn
Apr. 25th, 2007 06:16 pm (UTC)
Oh snap. Umm..we'll think of random stuuf so he won't know! Or we'll think about all the juicy, fat, mountain lions. And we may need to develop a helmet so he can't read our thoughts. -evil shmile-
Apr. 25th, 2007 06:35 pm (UTC)
*evil laugh* Muhahahahahaha....
May. 1st, 2007 12:00 am (UTC)
heyy, I just wanted to add to the long list of you supporters!

First of all, GOOD FOR YOU, guys can really just be AWFUL, great job on staying strong!

second, I would like to thank you for your very NICE comment on my helpless iconess! (Hey a twilight fan has to help another twilight fan right? I would think that we stick together in helping Twilightgirlfans! And i did not even know myself about the icon tutorial comm.)
I guess I forgot to mention that my icon was actually for new moon:P so THANKYOU you seem like a very good person and you deserve only the best edward-like-guy possible!
May. 1st, 2007 01:02 am (UTC)
OMG, you are just so sweet!!! Thank you for your support! I really need it at a time like this. And us Twilight chickas have to stick together! *added you as a super duper friend*
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